Sunday morning, we moved to No.47 from Field End, and won’t be back until Saturday morning.

We were quite happy and excited about the move, because both Beam and I had been missing the fun of cooking and homemade meals. Yes, being without a kitchen is the only drawback of staying at Field End. But then, life’s not perfect, is it?

As I was cutting up the vegetables,  “immaculately” as usual, it dawned on me that, after having been a full-time homemaker for years,  there seems to be no improvement really. I’m still slow… Then, a memory got released from a recess in my mind, how we used to share so mucn laughter together in her kitchen. The way she did her cooking simply fascinated me. “She” was like a goddess to me and I truly adored her. Actually, she and her husband were being highly praised by all of us, being so smart and capable in doing almost everything. Guess I will never understand how people, particularly close friends and family, can let jealousy get in the way. Aren’t you supposed to be happy and proud for each other’s achievements? I know we certainly are! But then, like the great movie “Courage Under Fire” said, you don’t have to understand everything; sometimes, you just have to admit that you can’t.

God, I don’t understand it, but I’m going to trust You anyway. You  know my heart. You know I’ve done everything I can do. I’m releasing it into Your hands.

When I woke up this morning, sunbeams poured into the room, dispelling the shadows, and I felt free and alive again.

 

周日早晨, 搬到了 No.47, 預計周六回到 Field End.

一進廚房, 發現赫伯竟然預備了整條的吐司麵包, 一盒很精緻的巧克力餅乾, 一大包小點心, 一整罐鮮奶, 甚至還有一大串香蕉… 後者應該是每日早餐時刻目睹老娘狂啃香蕉的緣故. 熊貓說真好, 我說我們是很乖的房客嘛, 難怪他疼我們 ^_^

Not-so-big yet lovely kitchen

N.47 是三戶連棟的 cottage, 建於 1905 年, 比 Field End 年輕兩歲. 三間睡房都在二樓, 但浴室在一樓, 所以如果睡到一半想噓噓, 就必須下樓; 夏天還好, 天氣冷的時候, 就有點考驗人的 “耐力” 了 ~ 還好, 來英格蘭已經一個多月了, 我的身體似乎已經習慣了這裏的節奏, 慢慢沒有這層顧慮了 *woohoo* ~

A lovely surpirse behind the door!!

Typical English stairway…

英格蘭的房屋都有著獨特的迷人風情, 但有一點始終令我困惑, 階梯都很狹窄, 就像照片中所見到的. 到底這些人是怎麼搬運大件家具上樓的呢? 我想即使是小件, 也並不簡單吧? 百年前的英格蘭人, 個頭有這麼嬌小嗎? 真是百思不解 ~~

大略安頓了一下, 我和梅小獸就拎著購物袋直奔 Co-Op, 本地唯一的超級市場. 我們對於終於又能自己煮飯, 都很開心! 住在 Field End 什麼都好, 就是沒法兒開伙, 只能外帶 (新加坡說 “包的”), 頂多買微波爐 ready meal; 但是我不喜歡用微波爐, 特別是讀了陳俊旭醫師的大作之後, 對於這些加工食品真的敬而遠之. 外帶的食物雖然絕對比不上自己烹煮安全, 好歹強過加工食品, 閩南語說的 — 沒魚蝦也好.

在廚房切著蘑菇蒜頭青蔥時, 想到自己切菜的動作向來很慢, 當了那麼多年的主婦竟是半點長進沒有, 不覺莞爾 ~ 笑著笑著, 突然, 想起了以前看此人在廚房的表現, 都好佩服, 俐落到極點! 又想到她老公也是切肉切得很漂亮, 我們總不吝由衷地大大讚美! … 我們明明都如此真誠相待, 甚至對於他們的聰明才幹還稱得上崇拜, 怎麼會突然一切都如此扭曲了? 我總是不明白, 真正的家人, 真正的朋友, 對於彼此的一切, 為甚麼有時竟會有 “嫉妒” 或 “競爭” 的扭曲心態? 那是不是代表這份情感不純粹了? 生命的轉折,有時真是沒什麼道理. 不過, 如同 “Courage Under Fire” 裏說的, 我們並不需要了解一切, 有時候, 我們只需要承認並接受 — 我們就是無法了解.

很顯然地, 這回梅小獸開始夏山生涯, 有人心裏又不平衡了, 又開始冒名搞破壞. 坦白說不是太意外, 因為還是朋友的時候, 就已經在背後放冷箭, 那麼分道揚鑣的現在就更毫無情份可言了. 熊貓說怎麼會知道來英國? 我說你太天真了, 我說斷就斷, 人家的園地我沒再踏進一步, 不管是哪一窟, 但人家又不是我! 不過, 比起當初事發的震驚, 現在的我只有為她感到遺憾, 竟然如此虛擲生命.

一覺醒來, 看看天空, 心中感到自在, 畢竟, 我不是那個必須靠搞破壞來證明自己存在價值的人 ^_^

Crisp skies…

 

Morning, Sunshine!!