搬家, 自在 New Place, For Now

Sunday morning, we moved to No.47 from Field End, and won’t be back until Saturday morning.

We were quite happy and excited about the move, because both Beam and I had been missing the fun of cooking and homemade meals. Yes, being without a kitchen is the only drawback of staying at Field End. But then, life’s not perfect, is it?

As I was cutting up the vegetables,  “immaculately” as usual, it dawned on me that, after having been a full-time homemaker for years,  there seems to be no improvement really. I’m still slow… Then, a memory got released from a recess in my mind, how we used to share so mucn laughter together in her kitchen. The way she did her cooking simply fascinated me. “She” was like a goddess to me and I truly adored her. Actually, she and her husband were being highly praised by all of us, being so smart and capable in doing almost everything. Guess I will never understand how people, particularly close friends and family, can let jealousy get in the way. Aren’t you supposed to be happy and proud for each other’s achievements? I know we certainly are! But then, like the great movie “Courage Under Fire” said, you don’t have to understand everything; sometimes, you just have to admit that you can’t.

God, I don’t understand it, but I’m going to trust You anyway. You  know my heart. You know I’ve done everything I can do. I’m releasing it into Your hands.

When I woke up this morning, sunbeams poured into the room, dispelling the shadows, and I felt free and alive again.

 

周日早晨, 搬到了 No.47, 預計周六回到 Field End.

一進廚房, 發現赫伯竟然預備了整條的吐司麵包, 一盒很精緻的巧克力餅乾, 一大包小點心, 一整罐鮮奶, 甚至還有一大串香蕉… 後者應該是每日早餐時刻目睹老娘狂啃香蕉的緣故. 熊貓說真好, 我說我們是很乖的房客嘛, 難怪他疼我們 ^_^

Not-so-big yet lovely kitchen

N.47 是三戶連棟的 cottage, 建於 1905 年, 比 Field End 年輕兩歲. 三間睡房都在二樓, 但浴室在一樓, 所以如果睡到一半想噓噓, 就必須下樓; 夏天還好, 天氣冷的時候, 就有點考驗人的 “耐力” 了 ~ 還好, 來英格蘭已經一個多月了, 我的身體似乎已經習慣了這裏的節奏, 慢慢沒有這層顧慮了 *woohoo* ~

A lovely surpirse behind the door!!
Typical English stairway…

英格蘭的房屋都有著獨特的迷人風情, 但有一點始終令我困惑, 階梯都很狹窄, 就像照片中所見到的. 到底這些人是怎麼搬運大件家具上樓的呢? 我想即使是小件, 也並不簡單吧? 百年前的英格蘭人, 個頭有這麼嬌小嗎? 真是百思不解 ~~

大略安頓了一下, 我和梅小獸就拎著購物袋直奔 Co-Op, 本地唯一的超級市場. 我們對於終於又能自己煮飯, 都很開心! 住在 Field End 什麼都好, 就是沒法兒開伙, 只能外帶 (新加坡說 “包的”), 頂多買微波爐 ready meal; 但是我不喜歡用微波爐, 特別是讀了陳俊旭醫師的大作之後, 對於這些加工食品真的敬而遠之. 外帶的食物雖然絕對比不上自己烹煮安全, 好歹強過加工食品, 閩南語說的 — 沒魚蝦也好.

在廚房切著蘑菇蒜頭青蔥時, 想到自己切菜的動作向來很慢, 當了那麼多年的主婦竟是半點長進沒有, 不覺莞爾 ~ 笑著笑著, 突然, 想起了以前看此人在廚房的表現, 都好佩服, 俐落到極點! 又想到她老公也是切肉切得很漂亮, 我們總不吝由衷地大大讚美! … 我們明明都如此真誠相待, 甚至對於他們的聰明才幹還稱得上崇拜, 怎麼會突然一切都如此扭曲了? 我總是不明白, 真正的家人, 真正的朋友, 對於彼此的一切, 為甚麼有時竟會有 “嫉妒” 或 “競爭” 的扭曲心態? 那是不是代表這份情感不純粹了? 生命的轉折,有時真是沒什麼道理. 不過, 如同 “Courage Under Fire” 裏說的, 我們並不需要了解一切, 有時候, 我們只需要承認並接受 — 我們就是無法了解.

很顯然地, 這回梅小獸開始夏山生涯, 有人心裏又不平衡了, 又開始冒名搞破壞. 坦白說不是太意外, 因為還是朋友的時候, 就已經在背後放冷箭, 那麼分道揚鑣的現在就更毫無情份可言了. 熊貓說怎麼會知道來英國? 我說你太天真了, 我說斷就斷, 人家的園地我沒再踏進一步, 不管是哪一窟, 但人家又不是我! 不過, 比起當初事發的震驚, 現在的我只有為她感到遺憾, 竟然如此虛擲生命.

一覺醒來, 看看天空, 心中感到自在, 畢竟, 我不是那個必須靠搞破壞來證明自己存在價值的人 ^_^

Crisp skies…

 

Morning, Sunshine!!

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