自從八月初回到新加坡,一直處於壓力鍋狀態;慶幸的是,行前報名了幾個課程,返星之後一一開課,讓我精神有寄託。自主性的學習畢竟是件快樂的事!

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快樂歸快樂,不在專業範圍內的科目,總是要更費心,尤其到了這個年紀,記憶力大不如前,面對指定作業,就難免有信心不足的時刻,有時甚至會膽怯。

Ever since we came back to Singapore early last month, I’ve been feeling stressed-out. Luckily, before leaving England, I signed up for a few courses. They’ve begun one by one which serves as instant morale boost. Learning based on your own interest and motivation is sheer bliss!

Having said that, most of the courses are completely new to me; moreover, age plays a tricky part when it comes to remembering things, meaning I need to study harder. Therefore, I do feel insecure and inadequate from time to time

兩天前繳交了一篇商業報告,心情七上八下地,因為我出身自軍公教家庭,專業是英文教學,跟商業半點關係也扯不上。

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Two days ago, I needed to write a business report. I almost had an anxiety attack, because I was born and raised in a civil servant family, and I myself am a TEFL teacher — Nothing to do with business.

在作業發回前,每個人會隨機拿到一篇同學的報告,然後必須依照課堂內容給予建議、評論。這,自然也是讓我緊張的原因之一;老師就是老師,所以我是魯肉腳也無所謂,但是讓同儕知悉了我的底,似乎滿尷尬滴。

Apart from that, everyone has to review a random report by some certain classmate. My goodness… To think my ignorance would very soon be exposed @_@

該來的逃不掉,懷裡揣著十二隻蹦蹦跳兔寶寶的我,就這麼開始接收同學的報告了。

欸?原來沒有想像中艱難呵~只是。。。怎麼完了一篇又一篇?

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But what can you do? Duh ~~~

Funny though, it wasn’t as tough as I expected. Just that… Why the reviewing seemed to have no end? They kept coming, one after another.

我轉頭對著埋首畫畫的梅小獸咕噥道:「怪了!到底要看幾篇?」不看完就不能進行到下一步,這是第一次作業量那麼大。但再怎樣也是得做完該做的事,阿不然咧?

耐著性子,一篇又一篇。

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Turned to my baby girl who was immersed in her own digital drawings, I grumbled, ‘Odd. So how many more do I have to review?! Like, never ending!’

But I knew too well, you could only move on to the next step after you had completed this part.

終於,交了第十九篇的評論後,突然發現:原來再往下一點還有個選擇,就是進行下一步。

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Finally, I submitted the 19th review. And just at that very moment, I suddenly realised that there was another option ‘Next Step’… I would have seen it if I had scrolled down a little more.

搞了半天,其實一篇就夠了,只是我自己手指頭業障重,看到「Review Another Report」就激動地按下去了,完全沒想到是不是往下看看有無別的選項。

SO! All along, we only needed to do one review. ONE! But I was too anxious and worked-up to scroll down and check if there were any other options.

笑了很久,標準的美歐咪行為,大頭蝦一隻。

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I had to laugh. Typical of May Oh Mee. Not exactly stupid, just slow… very slow sometimems.

不過,因為這個美歐咪行為,我才知道,原來我寫得算滿好的。總是這樣,缺什麼, 天父就即時送達。我真的頓時信心大增。

As a Christian, I firmly believe that ‘Everything happens for a reason’. Having done these reviews in fact made me aware of how well-written my report was, and this certainly had greatly improved my self-confidence. God’s provision never fails me.

真的很感謝 天父,總是如此信實地保守著我的腳步。我的 天父,就是如此又真又活的 神!

Thank you ever so much, my Heavenly Father, for being so faithful all the way. Always working behind the scenes on my behalf!

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Not sometimes. ALWAYS ^_^